Dear Ex Husband, everyday I live with the pain of not staying with you and not helping raise our children. Back then I was too young to realise the intelligent caring man I had. There is no way to go back to the past, I do however hope your are doing well. I wish I could give you my most sincere apology of our family falling apart and resulting in a tragic ending. You have a strong hold on my heart for the rest of my living days.
Hunny Bunny, I will never understand why you stayed with me, even after everything I did to you - becoming a junkie, stealing all the money for drugs, pawning everything we had (including my ring), cheating with strangers, becoming a hooker... and I know I don't deserve your love, I can never make up for any of that. I only pray that I will continue getting better, that I will never again become that animal that addiction turned me into, and that I will eventually be able to contribute my fair share to the household and to our relationship. I am beyond sorry for what I put us through - there are no words to describe my regret. I love you more than I have ever loved someone I am not related to - I am grateful, more than I can ever express. 93, Your Goodly
I'm sorry that I sat there while the other kids picked on you, saying that you lived in a crack house and that you bathed in and are pot. I'm sorry that I spit in your eye to feel like I fit in with rest of them. I'm sorry that I became the ringleader and the worst one of your bullies.
I'm most sorry for... Pushing people away. I push and push and push until they want nothing to do with me. I'm sorry I can't tell them that the reason I'm pushing is not them, but me. I push because I hate myself, not because I hate you. That's what I want to say, but I've never been good at that. So I'm sorry I hate me, and hate that no matter how hard I seem to try I can't like myself, or even love. And it stops me from living to the fullest.